A New Resolution

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A new year comes yet again and we resolve once more. This year I propose to you this: we need a new resolution because this may be the year you get cancer.

At year’s end, we are challenged to think back on it, the highs and lows, to reflect and to take the opportunity to make alterations and revisions for the year to come. Resolutions come in many forms, but the most common are health and lifestyle modifications:

How can I live a more healthy lifestyle?

I want to commit to pray for the health of my children.

I want to exercise more.

I just want my grandchildren to be healthy and happy. 

But having struggled with the depths of sickness for four years now, I can no longer hang my new year’s resolutions on health, because, for me, that may never come.

Not that health is not important, but if we elevate health above all else, what happens when we get sick? If health is the most important thing to us, do we lose it all when we get the diagnosis? Are we considered a loss once we become disabled? Is there life after disease?

Because tragedy strikes. Because babies are born with heart defects that require surgeries, and moms die prematurely of cancer, and teenagers are shot in parks, and hit by stray bullets in cars, and children get brain tumors.

If health is our resolution, if health is all we want for our children, for our future, what are we left with when affliction comes?

I understand that I am afflicted with disease this year. No resolve on my part will change that. So this year, I resolve to:

  • Live how I would have wished to have lived on the day that I die.
  • Use my experiences to reach others who are going through similar ones and actually help them.
  • Grow and learn and change.

Let us strive, not for health, but for wholeness.

 

4 Comments on “A New Resolution

    • Sarah,
      I don’t know if you remember me from XA at UVA, but I remember you! 🙂 you were my CG leader my first year.
      I love this post and your perspective on your illness. (I’ve read your whole blog) I have been struggling with my own unique stomach issues for about 5 years now and can relate to your struggles with multiple doctors and few answers or helpful information. I feel encouraged by your perspective on health and how we can’t make it our ultimate resolution. Because it will fail us and we don’t have as much control over our health as we would like to think. (This is what I have been learning) I work as a PTA now and I’ve also enjoyed hearing your insights about the health care system and couldn’t agree more.

      You are awesome and I appreciate your words so much! 😊 I am praying for you.
      Carson

      • Carson! Um, of course I remember you! How could I forget! Thanks so much for reading. I’m so sorry to hear you have been struggling with health issues. It really is so difficult! Send me a private message on Facebook and let me know more if you want, I’d love to hear more. Thanks again for reading!

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